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Old 04-11-2010, 12:34 PM
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AlbaStar
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Thanks Anna.

Feeling a bit odd . There are many, many thoughts going through my head that I'm struggling with:

- I feel like a fraud asking for help because other people have far worse problems than me, and in comparison I have it very easy. Am I really an alcoholic or just pretending to be? [nb - the facts speak quite clearly on that]

- One .sig that I've seen is "I have never woken up sober and hangover-free wishing I had been drunk the night before." Although I relate to the sentiment very well, damn it, there are some days where I have wished exactly that. Hangovers can be used to give legitimacy to feeling like s**t.

- Am I merely substituting SR for alcohol as a crutch?

- Do I really deserve any help anyway?

And so on, and so forth.

Rationally, I can produce the "correct" answers to all of these questions, but I'm not too convinced that I believe them. So in the meantime, I'm simply continuing to stumble along sober

Thanks for listening...
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