Hi MaryRita,
Welcome!
I do remember being awake during the night as others slept and being so, so scared. What an awful feeling!
I hope that you will find support here and stop drinking. If you are pregnant now, there is every reason for you to pay attention to the unborn baby's needs, as well as your other child. Take a look around here and you will see that you can stop drinking and live a sober life.