Originally Posted by
barb dwyer 
Awww, hon.
You're doing so extraordinarily well -
try focusing on the forward momentun
you've go tgoing today
before snagging
on the undertow of self doubt
in the disguise of 'closure'.
Turning away mail
and taking all his possessions elsewhere
is great for beginning closure.
It's such a slippery slope trying to figure out the insane
when we're only getting our own footing.
I hope you'll keep up with the forward movement.
An alcoholic loves nothing and no one above their own substance.
They've placed a substance
where their Spirit should be.
How can anything else after that
be anything but insane?
your post is so truthful. and i have taken many steps forward so maybe this one is a step back.
I fell today and hurt myself. I am ok..but it made me sad I was home alone with no one there..not that he would have cared that much but it was just a scary moment. I handled it fine and if the swelling on my foot doesnt go down I will go to the emergency room tomorrow. I guess that was my trigger tonight.,I almost very much hurt myself and where was he? Ahh..its in the past I know. Just a weak moment..
tomorrow I will start over again but you are so right about his soul..I have noticed that with him..he no longer has one,,,thanks so much for the bandaide on my heart..xoxo