Not sure what I am doing or thinking
So, I am confused. With myself.
Afiance is sober, it's been 3 months. He has found HP and has been friendly lately. Great, but, He keeps asking me "why don't you talk to me? or listen to me when I talk with you?" "Why do you ignore me or pull away when I try to hug or kiss you?"
I DO realize I am doing these things and can't help it. I just don't want to be around him. But, why am I like this when he is truly being nice? I feel like this is all fake.
I hate the fact that I know there is beer that is in the garage cupboard but, feel that I can't say anything about it.Let it go..I shouldn't let this make me crazy-but it is since I know he is setting himself up for relapse by hiding the booze.
I want him to leave and I want to leave yet it seems like to much-I feel like I'd hurt my kids and everyone views him as such a great guy.
mmmmmhmmm...I just don't know what to think, I am just confused with much anger.