Matty, (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Big Large HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I am sorry that you are feeling so out of yourself our friend. I hope and pray these feelings will ease soon. Someone told me once that these times are God's way of helping us grow and that He has big new plans for us. I hope you feel happier again very soon.
Love and big hugs, Pancake xo