I don't know about anyone else but I know I had a whole lifetime full of underlying issues before I ever smoked my first joint or drank my first drink.
I developed addictions on top of those to 'cope', but the biggest part of my recovery has been filling in the void I'd always felt.
It's scary as hell at times, and it's taken me a lot of work - but it's so worth it, Matt.
Keep that faith, lean on us, and you'll be ok, mate
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