Day 14
well this day started out pretty nice...then when I went to a meeting at lunch break I got insecure and stuff. it's becoming less since I poked around on the site for a bit.
I gotta look for the positive, be grateful for something in front of me, and STAY IN TODAY. I will get back into the unit of today; of what today is about for me....work right now and then meetings and recovery time after work. that's it. nice day. I'm grateful that i am free to have a full recovery type evening. I almost expect to be feeling much better by then if not real soon.
I still haven't had any big urges this time around. that's a relief, but for me it is not a sign of sucess. sucess is not using today. and for that to happen i must change today--not change tomorrow. i must live today and do the next right thing as best I can.
so I guess i should make myself available for work since lunchtime is now over!