I drank for any reason I could find (but it was likely motivated by depression). Because things went well at work, hey, I got a couple extra dollars. Celebrate with a few drinks. Things went crappy at work? I deserve a few drinks for putting up with that crap. I got a good grade on a test? Hooray! Round(s) of drinks! I bombed a test? My life sucks; may as well go to the bar.
I've only got 2 weeks without the booze, so I'm starting to gather pieces of the puzzle that I need to put together. So I'm seeing that I used alcohol in every situation and for every reason. But I need to work on getting to the underlying cause, because my I feel that my alcoholism is a symptom of much deeper issues which need to be dealt with.
Congrats on 100 days, HS! Well done!