Hi mburnsc
I remember it took me about 3-4 months to feel anywhere near normal, so maybe you're not as badly off as you might think? I dunno how many years you drank for, but it might take several months to reset yourself...
I also think it's a little risky to compare ourselves to others - it's your recovery after all - noone elses, and whats the AA saying about beware of comparing your insides to others outsides?
I think there's some truth in that.
I think ultimately, though, if we're not happy we have a right to ask why....noone gets sober to be miserable....
so why not start the steps if you're already an AA member?
Why not see a Dr or a counsellor to make sure there's nothing physical or psychological going on?
I think doing something always beats feeling miserable
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