Hello Sax,
I also don't think badly of you. You're in a delicate crisis situation and need some guidance. I think it's wonderful you thought to come here.
Good for you for getting rid of the rest of the alcohol.
To help prevent drinking to relieve the immense stress you must be feeling, is there a women's community health center where you are that offers support for women who are pregnant, unsure of what to do and can help you explore your options?
My thoughts and prayers are with you for getting the support you need - it's out there, don't be afraid to ask for help.
Take care ~