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Old 04-05-2010, 08:32 PM
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mimi54321
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Originally Posted by intention View Post
Hi Mimi,

The fact that you feel uncomfortable could suggest that you (your addiction) is trying to leave a door open somewhere for you to binge and purge.
Yes you're right I guess, I feel differently about my ED than I do about my alcoholism, its noone else's business and its a coping mechanism that kicks in when I have the urge to drink. I see bingeing/purging as the lesser of those two evils and its so hard to stop both simultaneously.

Don't get me wrong, my ED has improved no end over the last 6 months but its still there and I can still restrict and justify that its ok as long as I don't drink.

I'm scared that throwing myself completely into ED recovery will send me straight to the off licence. Gah, its like walking along a tight rope!
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