hey Saxony,
I'm 40something - I'm pretty sure a lot of our parents drank when we were conceived - mine did - noone knew any better.
I'm not a doctor but common sense suggests one drinking episode, and you and the bub will
probably be ok
That being said, you're an alcoholic...if you keep drinking with any regularity the chances are your child will end up with fetal alcohol syndrome or some other related condition, and I know you don't want that.
It's time to do something R.
See your doctor, see a counsellor, try AA or any one of the other recovery programmes...but do
something.
Harming ourselves is bad enough but I know you want whats best for the new baby.
Act now, mate
D