I sorry about your past experiences with Drs Sondra.
I've had them too - but I still maintain that we're pretty much the worst kind of folk to be our own doctors...I spent a lot of years self-medicating.
I'm not an American, Sondra but I know from past experience here there are often free clinics available - just google free clinics and your local area.
If nothing else it's good to know your options
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