We are here for you, I also have a baby and I visit the site at all hours of the day and night. My doctor (a recovering alcoholic), had to save my life twice after the birth of my baby, he straight up told me, leave him alone, go to your support system and let him go. If you try to interfere he will find a way around it-just let the rope unravel on its own. It is hard, but you and your baby (and any other children) are worth it. You have self worth, remember that.