Hi Susan, I do have a sponser but he is in his 2nd week of a 4 week holiday.
He is very good ,but in the 12 months I have been in and out of the programme (out for 24 days) he has not taken me forward with the steps as he says I am not ready. I have to trust him, but even though I did not have a drink last night or tonight and have been to meetings both days I still think about drinking, even though my stomach is seriously playing up.
I was welcomed back yesterday at the meeting I used to chair and I brought one lady to tears with mys story of relape as it coul be HER story , she could relate so much, but it was tougher at another meeting this morning where they are mostly hardened old timers who don't really realte, or can't remember what relapses are like, they see so many come and go and I don't think they ever expected me to stay anyway to be honest, quite surpised I got this far...but of course I could be wrong, I normally am.
Thanx to everyone who has posted