The fact that you are questioning your drinking indicates that you may have a problem. I started wondering if I had a problem, but deep down inside I KNEW I did. I too didn't think I could make it without my wine (all day, every day
) but now I know that not only can I make it without drinking, my life is better in so many ways.
Welcome back to SR!
I hope we can help you with support and information. This site sure has, and still does help me. :ghug3