Thank you for all your help.
I haven't got your stage Hevyn but little thinks like craving alcohol are building up. Feeling bad, stomach aches, dirrareha, a little shaking when I want a drink. After a binge it is worst and I learned a while ago just to smooth hangovers out by having another drink. When I was a teenager I suppose after a heavy drinking session the smell of alcohol made me feel sick but I don't feel that way anymore, I get a craving for drink.
My wife and I am going to have an honest talk, I hope she doesn't get angry and I become defensive.