Hi there, this is my experience, last year when i stopped for 5 months it was really hard and sucked ass after the initial elation of not drinking anymore had gone and all i had done is removed the booze and not changed a thing about me so instead of being able to deaden the emotions and feelings i was stuck with them 24/7...this time i went to AA 9 months ago, did what they told me, looked at myself for the first time and it has not been hard at all and now i can say that it truly is a joy to be sober instead of just paying lip service to that phrase, well worth a visit to AA when you are ready...welcome and good luck:-)