dee74 is right only you can decide. I too am from a small town Ive always coached my children and others and was able to keep my problem hidden my children have seen me drink often to states I wish they hadnt I am shameful I cant change it but I can educate them I am not a trainer though I wish I had one.My wife and I are or were since I am 33 good athletes had many chances .I was in good shape so I thought I could abuse myself it catches up to you.Its really not worth it. The money,health issues ect.We have a good life BUT I feel I could have done so much more.I came to this place many times and could not say honestly I didnt have a problem so I try to exept it. I still feel ashamed and is hard to admit but Im just speaking for me.GOD BLESS AND GOOD LUCK