Thank you for your post. I have 7 yr old twins and an 8 yr old. But I guess deep down I do feel as if I'm fooling myself (or not). I've tried to stop my nightly routine of a few drinks and do just fine for about 3 days. Then I reward myself with a few.
I am just really afraid of seeking help at home. We live in a very small town, I have a good reputation with the professional field (and intend to work again eventually), and don't trust anyone at AA meetings. That's why I came here.
Thank you again and I will keep coming back! Good luck to you too!