Hi tkmal
I think the only person who can really decide whether you have a problem or not is you...but you say your drinking bothers you - that's good enough to start thinking about it...and, reading your post, looking forward to drinking, and drinking alone may be red flags too.
There's a few online self-diagnostic tests available. Have you tried any of those?
While the results are obviously not conclusive they may give you food for thought.
The Michigan Alcohol Screening Test is a standard.
Michigan Alcohol Screening Test (MAST), Revised
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