First visit to SR
Glad to find this site. !! Tonight after work 2am will be my first night not drinking alone all thru the night. My life has vanished with all the booze. Tried several months ago to take a few nights off, could barely sleep, but hadn't made a decision then to give it up for good. After reading about outpatient help thru the county ( I guess) I'm going to get in touch with somebody soon. Blackout drinking every night, it's just nuts. Suprised I haven't burned my place down. I was court ordered into treatment for posession C, (in late 87) but soon realized my deepest freedom would be from alchohol. Had the best years of my life from 88 till 97 sober , but ended up with a wicked gambling addiction , didn't even realize Day Trading could even be gambling. Thankfully that's 5 years behind me, but the drinking has been getting really heavy the last 6 years. Anyway, thanks to all here for your posts !