This site exists for people like us Dub. You're not wasting our time.
I wasted a lot of my own time though by thinking my drinking was ok - hey it was legal - everyone drinks right?
I always paid my bills, everyone still liked me. I was a quiet drunk (well mostly but everyone gets loud and drunk sometimes right?)
And hey I wasn't as bad as that drunk, or that poor guy...and at least I wasn't on speed like that guy, or crack or heroin or coke...
and all the while, I was killing myself.
It's possible to leave it behind Dub - you just have to make the jump.
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