You aren't wasting our time!
But, I'm intrigued by your statement that your life is going good despite being an alcoholic.
For me, my life wasn't going good because I was an active unrecovered alcoholic.
My life became unmanageable because of alcohol. I watched my life shrink from being one filled with activity, a sense of sureness and direction, to a daily dread of living and an almost paranoid fear of doing the simplest of everyday things.
If I have this right, everything is going okay except for your drinking and drinking hasn't affected the quality of your life? Just respecfully curious, because it doesn't usually work that way...