I look at it this way, Neo. At the end of the day, did you drink? If the answer is "no" then that's what REALLY matters. Everybody's got their problems, it's how you deal with them without alcohol, that's the key...at least it has been for me these past 9+ months. It hasn't always been easy (nothing worthwhile ever is), yet it's been MUCH easier than dealing with all the problems that my drinking caused and for THAT I am truly grateful.