Sick
I hate to say this but sometimes we just need to 'feel it' and time does heal when sober. When not sober it is the same over and over for years and them if you did get sober down the road you will be right where you are now. So staying sober will help.
When I went thru something like that early on I was on my knees every night with my hands cupped and asking God to take it from me. Time heals and sometimes isn't flying by in those times.
So there is light with new friends and being able to 'feel' the good and the bad today.
AG