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Old 04-02-2010, 02:24 AM
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SparklingSeven
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Missing some "fun" in my life...

The fun is inverted commas for obvious reasons. I've reached a stage where I am kind of missing doing something "exciting". Bit of a Groundhog Day type feeling.

Also when dealing with life with it's many ups and downs it was good to be able to "enjoy" a bit of escapism - to get some relief form the stresses and strains. I don't have that any more.

I've stopped for reasonable periods before, and know from past experience that these feelings can be a signal that the rot has started again. The memory of the misery/sickness etc etc begins to dissipate slightly and the madness can start to creep in and you begin to think that it might be OK to try again...

BUT... I'm OK today. I'm sharing these thoughts to get them out there, stop that seed from germinating and taking root.

Sobriety is not all good, it's not a breeze, a piece of cake. But it's certainly infinately superior to the other option - just got to keep going a day at a time - and at the moment I am managing that and it's OK

I am 60 days sober today.

Stu.
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