Maybe just a thought, but instead of seeing a psychiatrist you may consider a therapist. I saw an addiction therapist and she was wonderful. It was face to face venting so to say and it really helped at the time.
I am worried about your depression though and hope you are getting help with that.
As for people telling you that we know how you feel: If you have a moment find my thread 03/19/2006 (should have been 2007, but I lost a few braincells during my drinking years
). I posted it last week (on the 19th actually - doh) and it might help you understand where we/I come from.
Keep posting.