thanks so much everyone. i already feel the support from this site. this is a very busy time of year for me, we have a lot of company and do a lot of entertaining. i am worried about the temptation when sitting around the fire at night watching everyone slam them down. hopefully with good communication with my husband, there will be support. although he is a very heavy drinker as well, he drinks liquor and a lot of it. he looses control now and then but is always the nice drunk. he gets up every morning and does a full 12 to 14 hours of work.
i know i can do this, i know i can.