new and dont know what to do.
Im an 18 year old female who has about 47 days sober right now. This is by far the most difficult thing ive ever been faced with. right now im in the "recovery sucks" stage. i feel like im going to miss ouut on alot in my life because i cant use drugs or alcohol ever again. i know how bad things got for me when i was using. so i know that soberiety is what i need. its just it sucks to think that i cant use and regulate it like some people do. Also, im still in highschool at the moment and peer pressure sucks. i havent been to school sober since 8th grade and going back just felt wierd. a bunch of old friends that i used with, hell i even used in the bathroom at school. so going back felt wierd. I just dont really know what to do right now. i mean i go to meetings like 2 times a day, but i havent gotten a sponsor yet and have trouble picking up the phone. advice?