Corn, I think you should vent too. That is usually a good thing, so that you work through it. Although I don't know very much about being bi-polar (at least I think I don't); medications either.
I hope it works out, so that you reach a point where you can stop the drinking and fitting it into different time slots (for the apt search tonight, for example). Life gets in the way for addiction, as you know. The gal inside (that you mentioned above) is there, it sounds like it will take a little more time to work through things.