Originally Posted by
Womble 
Most of all I cannot accept that the answer to all my problems is the turn my life over to a God of my understanding.
If I don't get it, I just dont get it, its not something I can fake.
You and I are on the same page. I went to my first and only AA meeting last week and I walked away with your sentiments. I'll say that there are other AA meetings? What I mean is. I saw a private-practice Alcohol & Other Drugs counseler once for my drinking and he presented me with a whole bunch of meetings that were AA, yes, but tailored (supposedly) to a certain type of person. (Single, married, men, women, old, young, gay, straight, religious, not religious - that sort of thing.) I went to a meeting that is a few blocks from my apartment just because it was close, but, I intend to check out one of the one's that may be closer suited to my situation, my life.
So hopefully I get to one of those sooner than later.
Yours in AA procrastination (of course, due to alcoholism),
Eliot