I very much agree with Recovery83
Since I have that addict mind, I always want to feel good.
I still battle that, and in a myriad of ways - I can feel 'good' from overworking myself, from overeating, overexercising, overreacting even LOL.
Even when my pursuits are positive and noble ones, I've realised I have to watch that I'm not doing harm to myself.
I figure I've had enough edge for 5 lifetimes, so I'm happy being Grandad Dee now....LOL
but I think the same dangers - the same motivations that have always driven me - could be there in looking for an 'edge', so... be mindful about that Laura
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