Jack -
I am on day one as well, and while I'm only 27, I have some of the same characteristics you mentioned in your story above. I'm a former college party girl and now I have a very nice, well-paid job. I generally keep my drinking to the weekends, but when I start, I can't stop. I get to the point where I black out, say and do things that are not good for me or my relationships. I have a wonderful boyfriend and I've made things very difficult between us with my binge drinking. One problem is that our friends all like to go out to bars, but none of them have a problem like I do.
My father was an alcoholic and I don't want to end up like him. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone's responses because I have many of the same questions.
It is comforting to know that I am not the only one starting at day one.