And it was great! I cried again because I saw some faces I knew. I saw someone I knew from years ago in Alanon and it reminded me of the old pain I felt from my mom and my ex being alcoholics. Now I am the alcoholic causing others that same pain that I felt? It was such an overwhelming feeling. I felt like a victim and a martyr and an enabler and a badass alcoholic all at the same time. And I guess I am all those things. But my child is not going to be, because the buck stops here.
It was a great meeting, and I left feeling exhausted but empowered. I'm going again tomorrow. I won't be doing 90 in 90 because I live in a remote area, but I'm ok with that. I can hit 3 a week and come here every day a few times a day!
