Eh, I failed again. The words were on the tip of my tongue when I took my brother out for lunch. They just didn't come out. I honestly think my family doesn't know how sever my alcoholism really is.
So I have been up for about 48 hours straight now. Not even tired. I don't know if I really care anymore. The insomnia is just another reminder of what I really am. Which is the hard part I have to deal with now. I have been sober for a couple of days, but what is the point? If "detoxing Michael" is no different than " usual drunk Michael" why should I even try? *sigh* I just don't care. Let the beast run.
Michael
(BTW, the edit your post button is a great tool when you have been up for 48 hours trying to convince yourself to stay sober)