But it's not just an idea in your head is it Mek? It's a real actual problem or else you wouldn't be here.
Noone here can tell you want to do - it's tough to go against peer pressure, media pressure, and the desire to be normal and not have a problem.
I get it. I battled that from about your age until I was 40.
Looking back I would have loved to have been so self aware as you are at your age. I know I could have saved myself, and my friends and family, a heck of a lot of grief and sorrow.
All I or anyone here can do is share our experience.
I really I hope you make the right choices Mek
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