Please Dub, please stop now and you'll never have to feel this badly again. I know how bad w/d can be, I've been thru them too damn many times myself. But now I know it can be done, gotten thru, and be over with forever. Please get medical help or something now. I hate to see you going thru this pain over and over, and it only gets worse.
I agree that your dogs would want to see you well again.
