I'm fascinated with that show too. I had a different DOC, but tried all of the other "better living through chemicals" options out there throughout my life. I still struggle with the question of "am I good enough" in many ways and usually on a daily basis, except for when I'm too busy to stop and think. It's getting easier to put on the happy face and present that part of me to the world, but behind closed doors my emotions and doubts really crowd my brain. It gets pretty overwhelming at times. Self-confidence and self-esteem have been two of the most difficult things for me to gain and maintain. I feel your pain and will pray that we all find ourselves believing we are worth it and we deserve nothing but the best. Peace and hugs to you.