Welcome to SR Ozgirl,
I know exactly the feeelings you are going through and feel your pain. The best part is that you have been clean for a month before
, this time make it for good, you can do it. You are young and have your whole life ahead of you. In my 25 years of drinking I never made it past 30 days, now I have a little over 2 months sober and have never felt better except for being tired all of the time. My mind is much clearer and the anxiety is all but gone, I never knew life could feel so good.
Good luck to you and remember life is way to short to live it as an alcoholic.
MahiMahi