I made my first post tonight and before bed I checked one more time and read your post.........I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart.......perhaps I can sleep tonight after all. Maybe I am not totally crazy and ready to just give up . Maybe I can try to hold it together for myself and get me better........just work on me. I have forgotten about "me" for so very long. Thank you for the kindness of your shared thoughts and thank you to all who have responded to me........it is hard to put my whole story out there at once but I will continue to read........thank you.......dixie