My husband will outright deny behaviors situations etc. that I myself witnessed and I somehow in the end go along with him and doubt myself. Most days I want to wake in in the morning in a new life..with a husband that looks forward to spend time with me and not with anyone else that will drink with him. I want to cut out that horrible painful part of actually leaving. The last time I tried talking about it he put a major guilt trip on me telling me how I will ruin his life, he can't afford to live on his own He is laid off and decided to go back to College where drinking and getting high before class is cool and all great for 19-20 year olds and there he is right in there with them. I sometimes am embarressed for him. I am a social drinker and that is not good enough for him...he needs to act like an ass,spend all our money, act inappropriatly and god knows what else and I always end up sucking it up.