Vodka...Yup, I did that too because I thought it would be less calories. Martini's actually so Vodka AND Vermouth.
In a strange way I'm kind of looking forward to being sober because I need to change and work on myself. I need to start liking myself.
I've been keeping a journal and writing down everytime I think of a reason I need to stay away from alcohol and I plan on reading the list everyday and remind myself of what I have to lose. What scares me is I have a history of getting obessed with something and going all out with it only to give it up and crash...then ripping myself apart about it...I'll try not to do that this time.
It helps to know there is some place to spill my guts...
Well, I'm off to bed. I like mornings because there's no pressure. I never drank then or the afternoons. I'm making plans to be busy in the early evenings so I don't think too much.
Thanks everyone. Have a good night.