It's ironic how that happens, but yes, it does. My goal in life was to be 'not like my mother'. Well, for a long time it went pretty well, but then when my kids were teens, I began drinking. Alcohol, I believe, steals from us the things that are most near and dear.
When we are drinking, even closet drinkers as I was, other people know. They know a lot more than we realize.
Do this for yourself, and know that you can recover.
Talk to your dr about detoxing and know that you will find lots of support here.