Thanks for the feedback. I am pretty certain what I need to do right now. I am going to continue to follow this path I am leading where I am letting myself find my way as I go along. This seems to be working quite well as I am able for the first time in my life listening to my inner voice that has been there all along trying to guide me but I did not want to listen. I have experienced so many ups and downs this week and instead of finding the nearest beer store and sitting in a park chugging several king cans I have chosen to sit with myself and give myself support to get through them. I have been coming on here, reading my meditation book, spending more time with my family instead of isolating myself, being real with people about my alcoholism and what I need in order to maintain my sobriety. In the past I was more concerned about pleasing everyone at any cost. I ask for what I need now and let God take care of the rest whoever that may be!