Originally Posted by
Sarra 
and I have been in denial for so long about my drinking... telling myself (and my husband) that I don't have a problem... that I can stop whenever I want to.
That my friend is the obsession of the Mind that is referred to by many as a Disease. Not everyone believes the Disease Theory nor do we have to. But you just nailed it on the head, We still Tell Ourselves that We are Not Alkies!.. That will always be who we are and I can tell you from my own experience, that if you do Make this decision today that you are going to do something about it, I want you to know that it isn't going to be easy but as you can tell also here many of us are doing this Deal odaat One Day At A Time. So welcome aboard! Glad you posted I really needed to hear what you said.