Feeling Like I am in a GOOD Place
Well, life is rather complex right now....but I feel like I am in a good place. Sadly, I think it is mostly due to detachment, and focusing on myself and the kids....but is bringing me peace and happiness. My AH, I let move back in the house for now, mainly due to the fact that my pregnancy has had me in and out of the hospital for the past 5 weeks, and I need someone here to hlep with the kids while I am gone - and he is still not drinking, at least not here, and he is being a little nice than normal. That said, I know that he still does drink and that his niceness will not last - but I am absolutely ok withy that. I am not in a place where I can make any permanent decision at the moment. I also am not living in a distorted reality anymore. I know he probablly won't change and that at sometime down the road I will be required to make some tough decisions.....but I need to get through this bump in my road first! However, I do not engage in his BS anymore, and I simply live my life in the same peaceful manner that I did before he came back!! I have to say it feels really good to be in control of my own emotions and feelings and to feel that I can continue that regardless of whatever the future holds. I am SO thankful to everyone here because the posts that I read all the time, really help me. So.....excited about the upcoming birth of my son, and working on me and my life with my children - with or without my AH!