Fragrantrose, you're right. Tiny baby steps - be kind & patient with yourself. You are getting the job done, and that's wonderful. You'll go through many phases as you heal, so don't despair.
Happier, that was a great list. You WILL beat this thing, like your Dad did!
I'm not sorry I gave up arriving at work armed with mouthwash, eyedrops, extra perfume - and oh, yeah, my supply of liquor to sip on during the day to avoid the shakes. Also not missing driving with a drink in my cupholder - terrified of getting stopped. Shameful behavior that I actually justified.