Things I hate about addiction....
The ole twistaroo game....I could actually HAVE his pills in my hand out showing Him and He would still try to manage to make ME think I am crazy and need help. WTF?
Doubting myself when My gut is trying to tell me different. Made me crazy.
Researching more about His addiction than HE does, after all..He doesn't research my PMS!
Pitting people against Me and isolating Me.
Pinned pupils....I just hated looking at them.
Panic. The pills would render him reckless...He was always trying to fix things when he was high, and would end up breaking it instead. Cost me more money in the end.
Hiding my purse.
No social life.
Lack of intimacy.
Always feeling like I am "waiting".
Me snooping and becoming a detective.
Seeing myself tolerate behaviors that I would never tolerate from ANYONE else.
Pretending everything was great to other people when my bottom was falling out.
Losing my friends.
Always having to defend myself when HE was actually the one in the wrong.
Not trusting the one person in the world you are supposed to feel "home" with.
Watching Him pee in a cup. So humiliating for BOTH of us, not to mention expensive!
Having the time of my life in "dry" times knowing i was on borrowed time. I always knew "He" would come back.
Knowing how it ends.
The best thing about His addiction......
Finding You guys and learning more about myself than I ever have!!! It's the best I've ever felt!!!!!!
Love this post! Thanks Lady.