Welcome to SR Strytone28, lots of good folks here.
Its now affecting me more than ever and have decided to go to a recovery meeting this week.
Smart move according to this alcoholics experience, just to prepare you, not all meetings are the same, if the first one you go to just is not your cup of tea try another.
In detox they told us to do at least 90 meetings in 90 days & to get a sponsor. I did just that and the vast majority of folks I know who have done that along with taking the steps with thier sponsor have stayed sober.
Not knowing where you live I would suggest looking up your local AA website and check out where & when meetings are. If you are nervous about going to your first meeting alone call the AA hotline, they can arrange for someone to meet you some where for coffee & then a meeting.